A good mix does not make...
I can feel myself slipping back into depression. I haven't felt like this in a couple of years, and I feel myself spiraling and getting worse each day since last Friday.
I no longer want to get up in the mornings.
I no longer want to go to work at Lowes.
I no longer want to teach online. Just the thought of pulling out my headphones in a little bit makes my head hurt.
I no longer want to cook dinner. I don't even want to eat.
I no longer want to deal with the kids. I just want to sleep. I find that I am snapping at them for little things.
I no longer even want to search for a job, I just forced myself to apply to a couple of jobs on the base, but it hurt.
I know I need to snap out of it, but I am still so upset about my observation from last week, and my phone call from Friday that I don't know how to do it.